And it makes me want to-- SHOUT!

Throw my hands up and--SHOUT!

Yeah.  

Things that make me want to scream:

In Frustration:

* Uncooperative Christmas Lights

* People who pull RIGHT out in front of you and drive 5 MPH on bare roads OR 11MPH in a 35 on bare roads.....

* Problems on tests that I made stupid mistakes on......all because my brain was fried from 3 Exams and 2 projects in 36 hours. 

* Stepping in puddles that make my socks wet.

* Not being able to figure out why my car (loaner) is stalling randomly while idling.

* Not being able to find a car to buy in my budget.

In Ecstasy:

* Laughing with Friends

* Good music

* Driving on empty roads (vroomvroom =P)

* Family (usually)

* When Stats finally click

* When I actually paint a half decent watercolor 

Never Have I Ever....Just Kidding

Do you ever feel like if you were put into a line up with 100+ other people and a random person was plucked off the street and asked to decide in the line up "Which of these is not like the others" that there is a GINORMOUS neon arrow pointing right at you?

Um................................ yeah.

"Are You On Crack?"

Why is this the response to my life in general?  I have no clue!  I'm just high on life, there is no banned or abused substance in my veins.....not even caffeine :)   I just have a lot of energy and warped sense of humor.  And a few ADD traits....combined with some OCD traits....HAHA

All in all life is good, I love it and love to share it!

Seemingly Contradictory Complexities

How can life be so complex, simple, contradictory, and full of joy all at the same time?  I don’t understand.  It makes my head spin.  

This was one of the most relaxing yet at the same time one of the most stressful weekends in a long time.   I loved having time to myself but wow, what a way to get there!

This prescribed “altered diet” is difficult.  I had not realized how addicted to coffee I had become, not in the daily quota sort of way but more in a when I’m wiped out and need a boost sort of way.  Not being able to access that extra little boost when I need it is hard.  Couple that with no chocolate, trying to avoid fatty foods, and a dairy allergy it is nearly impossible in a college cafeteria.  I feel like I am constantly craving something I can’t identify even if I’m not hungry.  This doesn’t make sense in my head at all.  On a much happier note, so far on day 4 of the new meds for my acid reflux I have had no headaches :)  YAY

Continuing in the contradictory theme…haha   How is it possible to be surrounded by so many people and yet feel so utterly alone at times?  Again, I don’t know.  Maybe it is my introvert-ness and the fact there are so few people that I can spend large chunks of time with without getting tired?  Not that this is making me unfruitful; I have definitely grown and am growing in my quiet times. 

Micah 6:8 has been my heart’s prayer for the past 9 months.  I know it is not attainable on my own as Elizabeth, but only by God through me.  I fail daily.  Hourly.  By the minute and second.  As much as I hate to cast judgment and want to be able to just love those around me, I can’t do it.  Flesh creeps in and sticks its meddling fingers into all of my well-laid plans, continually making a mess of things.  Paul’s Romans 7:15 For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate.  Sigh.  It is so simple to just “Follow Jesus” but so my flesh makes it so complicated in execution!

Thank God for mercy and grace.  And I pray that those are planted in my life so firmly that I can in turn sow seeds of mercy in grace in the lives of people I am in contact with.  

Yes, this post is somewhat scattered.  Oh well.