Restless.....

Spring has made me restless for all of my years since high school.  Maybe it happened before then, too, but I don't remember.  It is a feeling that makes me want to drive for days, be away from people forever, sit on a mountain top listening to the birds and admiring the handiwork of my creator, spend the afternoon on the bank of a secluded stream trying to coax a Brookie out to snack on my bait, or sometimes it is even enough to just drive really fast.  Something in my head makes me more introverted than usual, more easily tired by other people's troubles, and more prone to just giggling and being silly to try to cope with all of what is running through my brain.

I don't know what causes this.  It could be the long winter's cooped-up-ness that is finally melting into freedom, but I don't think that is all.  Autumn brings this on as well, but not as noticeably, nor as strong.  It could be that I am so emotionally and spiritually "spent" by the end of the winter that I am parched, dry and thirsty for change; change that I know can only come from a change within, but sometimes needs a boost from an external change as well.

It is encompassed by a desire to run, to write, to get "out" of myself.  This desire to leave my shell, my failure and start fresh.  However, I realize this would be futile.  For to truly be starting "fresh" I would have to lay aside all of the lessons I've learned through life, both from failure and success.  This would leave me prone to making even MORE mistakes, screw ups, and tragedies.  This is not the change I want.  I need to retain the lessons, but shed the human skin to reclothe myself in the righteousness of God.

Yup, I fail miserably.  If the only person sewing these garments were myself I would be dressed in ragged, poor quality, strings everywhere and shabby.  Thankfully, there is a master designer who clothes me in more beautiful things than I can imagine.  I still struggle to wrap my head around why, or how he could possibly love me that much, but my heart knows.

I guess if I'm honest with myself, it is my head that is restless; my heart knows right where it belongs.

Just a quickie! :)

Well, it has yet again been a while since the last "real" post....sorry 'bout that.  Life in PI is as busy as usual, for example, last night while on duty I got to deal with a possible case of appendicitis (this was okay) and not even 4 hours later I was given the incredible opportunity to clean condoms off door handles(this was NOT okay)......that was not a night I love my job........GROOOOOOSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

Honestly, I think when the number of men in a group increases, the brain cell function exponentially drops. 

I'm leaving tomorrow afternoon to take a bunch of students to hike Katahdin :)  Can't wait!  It will be fun, I'm praying for at least decent weather for the students, but it will be fun no matter what :)

A couple nights ago we had had some beautiful days and the sunsets were GORGEOUS :)  for example, Sunday night I got to watch this out my apartment window:

The following evening I was about going nuts from being stuck in my apartment for the past 72+ hours so I jumped into the Black Widow and went for a scenic sunset drive :)

Just as the sun dropped behind the hills out in Castle Hill

 As I was driving around to Mapleton there was a GINORMOUS flock of Canada Geese flying....this is only 1/4 of the flock.

 The purple ones are purple from the "dusk" setting on my camera, this is looking out over Haystack "Mountain" from the Mapleton end :)

I'm so excited for fall :)   It is my favorite season, a season of death, but of so much more :)

Summer is almost over?!!?!?!

I don't know how it got to be the end of August and I haven't written since February... I kind of stink at this blog/updating thing. lol

Anyways I only have a minute so this is the bulleted edition of my update: :)

* I spent my Easter break in the beautiful state of Colorado with friends;it was a blast and I even got to go skiing in the Rockies :):):)

* The school year rounded out okay and I didn't die on my 22 page long (single spaced) Genetics final...though it was a close call!

* I am Working at Lincoln Paper and Tissue again this summer. I am head of the yard crew....there are two of us :) I don't really like the ring of "yard crew" so instead we've changed it to Horticultural Engineer...and I'm the Chief one. lol

* I am not returning to Grove City this fall. I spent a lot of time praying about what God would have me do for my life and what I was doing in Biology (which I do love). Through some obvious God stuff (cause I'm kind of thick) in Colorado and on the flight back I have decided to attend Northern Maine Community College in Presque Isle, Maine. God has been opening doors left and right and things are really falling into place. I am accepted into their Nursing program (2years) and will be living on campus in a single (which is a double that I have all to myself! :) )

Well, I have homework already for my nursing stuff so I need to get back on that :):) Dad and I went and jumped in the river this afternoon...the water is WICKED high and we both jump/dove off the dock. It felt wonderful as the weather was miserably muggy today. It was pretty though and I took this pic :):):)

Hugs, hopefully the next update will be sooner than 6 months from now! E.

First real weekend back!

I took this pic the morning Tyler and I left Maine, the sun was coming up just as we drove into Bangor. It is so beautiful!

So far school is going well. My classes all seem like they will be manageable with the exception of my ecology class which could be wicked hard. My Professor wants all of our lab reports to be in the style of a scientific journal article! AAAAHHH!

Between studying and work I haven't really had tons of time to catch up with friends and some I really haven't seen at all. I got my Sunday shift changed! Yay! Now I can still go to Mt. Olive!

This weekend I went for a walk on Saturday morning, I went to the post office, the Salvation Army, and the farmer's stand at the American Legion. It was nice and cool and very relaxing to be doing something besides work/study. Saturday night I went to the street dance with a bunch of friends :) it was wicked fun and there were alot of people there! At the beginning it was all upperclassmen and the Orientation Board people but eventually freshmen came.

Sunday, after church, April, my friend Arielle's older sister, invited me to join them for lunch in her apartment. It was wicked nice and a welcome change from teh cafeteria!

Wow, the new cafeteria is amazing! I can't even explain it other than it is blue with industrial style ceilings and lots of different stations so there are hardly any lines! It is wicked wicked nice!

Well, today I am homeworking and then going with my entomology class tonight to go nighttime bug catching! :) should be fun!

Hugs, Love and miss you all! e.

I'm Back!!!

Hi all! I'm finally back at school...though i really liked being home and didn't really want to come back and start school again. I really missed my friends here though!

Tyler and I drove down on Saturday, we left my house at 4:30am....ick! But, that meant we arrived earlier which was nice! I got my room stuff out of storage on Sunday evening, so much of it is only temporarily unpacked and there is a lot more to go.

Church on Sunday was really cool because Pastor Armstead really covered all of the things that I had been praying about and struggling with this summer...kinda cool confirmation from God that Mt. Olive is where I'm supposed to be right now.

Please pray about my schedule, I'm currently working 2 jobs on campus but one of my shifts interferes with church. I emailed my RD so hopefully it can get switched, but we'll see!

Well, I have some precalc homework to finish up, love you all! e.

Home again, home again!

Well, I survived my finals and flew home on Monday night. Unfortunately, I got hung up at JFK for 4+ hours instead of my scheduled 1.5.......apparently we were waiting for our pilot, but once she arrived they found mechanical problems...yay. Robyn went with my mom to pick me up in Portland....wicked fun to be able to catch up with her while mom slept :). Anyways, I finally got home at 4am....so nice to sleep in my own bed!

Yesterday (Wednesday) I had my interview at Lincoln Pulp and Tissue; I applied through their student hire program. There were 6 other students, including 2 people I knew. I was the first one called in for my interview....AHHH!! lol I thought it went pretty well and a couple hours later they called and offered me the job! :) YAY! Wicked exciting! It doesn't start until June 12 though so I am currently looking for another job until then. Maybe subbing at the elementary school? I don't know.

I'm trying to get unpacked but it is hard because my room is kind of full and I ran out of hangers....haha oh well, I'll make it to walmart soon!

I went to Jacob's baseball game this afternoon....kinda chilly out. They lost. shoot. Hills had her softball game tonight as well but it was far away so mom and I didn't go. She hit 2 home runs and a triple. One home run was over the fence, the other on errors.

It is weird being home and not around all my friends from school but I will be back there soon enough and I need to remember to enjoy my family while I am here.

I may be headed out to camp for a bit while I'm waiting for my job to start....that will be nice! For now I'm just praying the sun comes back out and it warms up!

Hugs to you all! e.

HOME!

Home Sweet Home! :) I arrived home late on Friday night after a very interesting day of travel...I ran into lots of extremely interesting people in the airports, a couple from Switzerland who were going to Boston, an elderly woman who was just getting back from the Keys with a very heavy suitcase, another elderly woman who was coming from Naples and was wicked tanned...and her hair was bleach blonde, and a frail old woman who had a very funky leopard print fleece hat who was from MA and has a camp here in Maine on Shin Pond. I flew into Boston and took the bus up to Bangor, quite an adventure...lol :)

I've been from one end of the state to the other... :) I went south with my Papa to buy him a new car...a Toyota Prius, pretty sweet car, very funny! He almost ran over the car salesman because he didn't know the car was on! Yesterday I went to Caribou (north) for a "Resident of the Month" party for my Great Great Uncle Keith...who I had never met before in my life... :) He's 82 and lives in the Veterans Home up there, he's a pretty funny guy, they had cake and ice cream for him. I also met my Great Great Aunt Louise, Great Aunt Bertie, and my Cousin (3rd-4th) Linda (who is older than my mom)...fun.

No skiing, their wasn't enough snow....though it snowed very hard yesterday and last night. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO pretty!

I got to hang out with Robyn and Tyler on Sunday night, wicked fun!!! I missed them so much! Our waiter had the "dropsies" and dropped everything...the menus (twice), receipts, the big display with the list of the desserts of the day....I thought I was going to die laughing . :) Ugh, wish I could just take them with me to school.....

Well I'm off to visit my Gram, have a lovely day! :)

Hello!

Hello Everyone!

Last weekend my mom, sister, and brother came out to PA, we had an awesome visit, I had a blast with them! Hills got my bed and I slept on the floor....not so comfy! :) Sisterly love! haha It was pretty fun and it was really nice to see them...I can't wait until Easter break!!!!

This week has been rather crazy....no major exams but lots of little things that kind of piled up and made life quite hectic...

Our Intramural soccer team finished up...we didn't make it into the finals but we had a blast playing! I am now doing IM Bowling (we have an 8 lane alley here on campus) with 4 of my friends and so far we have won both of our matches! :) I'm also subbing for the hall IM basketball team when they don't have enough girls...we won our first game of the season and the second game the team forfeited so we got that as a win as well!! :) I'm trying to see about doing a hall IM softball (slow pitch!) team....but so far there are not enough girls interested....the good thing about IM sports here is that they are not too intense...mostly like pick up games at home....just fun! and good study breaks!

I had "Pelkey Church" today, was nice, listened to music from the Lincoln Christian Fellowship site (Part of HOME!!!!) and did my own bible study, it was nice....really miss my church family!

Well, I have a lot to do for classes tomorrow! Hugs to you all!!! E.