Always

So ever since I stumbled upon this song a couple weeks ago it has been running through my mind almost continuously. Such a powerful reminder of who God is and that he truly is for ALWAYS.

Always - Building 429
I was standing in the pouring rain one dark November night
Fighting off the bitter cold when she caught my eye
Her face was taught and her eyes were filled, and to my surprise
She pulled out a photograph and my heart just stopped inside
She said, “He would’ve been three today I miss his smile, I miss his face”
What was I supposed to say,

but I believe always, always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone God knows our pain
and his promise remains
He will be with you always

He was living in a broken world, dreaming of a home
His heart was barely keeping pace when I found him all alone
Remembering the way he felt when his daddy said goodbye
Fighting just to keep the tears and the anger locked inside
He’s barely holding onto faith
But deliverance is on its way, cause I believe always, always Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone God knows our pain
and his promise remains
I believe always, always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone God knows our pain
and his promise remains
He will be with you always

Friend, I don’t know where you are
and I don’t know where you’ve been
Maybe you’re fighting for your life or just about to throw the towel in
But if you’re crying out for mercy, if there’s no hope left at all
If you’ve given everything you’ve got and you’re still about to fall
Well hold on, hold on, hold on
Cause I believe always, always Our Savior never fails
Even when all faith is gone
God knows our pain
and his promise remains
Always, always,
He will be with you always

Frosty Grass and Crunchy Leaves

BRRRRRR! It's getting COLD up here :) heehee. 23 outside this morning at 8...it dipped down to 19 last night :) Snow predicted for Wednesday! Ahhh, I love it! :)



I made it through my rough two weeks alive, and only slightly worse for wear. This week I have wicked exciting things to look forward to! Grover friends coming to my beloved Maine! :):):) I can hardly wait! I've been shaking with anticipation and marking off calendar days for a month! lol :):)

Classes are going well for the most part. I had a hard time prepping for my last exam and I have a hard time understanding my clinical instructor...or rather getting the information I need from her. But after a long talk with my advisor and the head of the nursing department I have a plan. :)

OH! Happy news! I have honestly been praying for some Christian fellowship outside of church service. I was getting discouraged. Then--WOOHOO! :) Soooo, Saturday afternoon I was standing on my head in the trunk of my car to change my brake light (my trunk is really deep so I have to bend over and all you can see is my legs and butt...lol) when my RD walked up beside me and said he'd seen me at the Wesleyan church.....and I was dumbfounded. lol! Anyways! We talked for a long time and he's a strong Christian! He invited me to go out with them after the service that night (The Wesleyan church has a Saturday night service....that is the one I like best and usually go to) I was SOOOOOOOO excited! So I went! And I met so many awesome people.....we stayed at church from 6-8....visiting and fellowshipping and it was GREAT! After that we went to the Governor's and just had a blast getting talk some more. So cool. AND then, at 10pm...lol we went to Tim Horton's and talked some more! Adam (my RD) said in the 6 or 7 years since he's been an RD here there has been only ONE other Christian each year....and he was excited because he is pretty sure there are 4 or 5 of us this year! :):):) We talked and decided to try and start a bible study one night a week for an hour and a half each time! I'm wicked excited!!!!!! SO COOL! So....by the time that I got back to my dorm room from all of this it was midnight....lol

I got to go to an art show opening last night with Uncle Jme.....wicked cool! I love going to those kind of things....just a whole different atmosphere! I love taking in other people's feelings and interpretations of life around them. Just really nice to be around art heads for a bit :) that is one thing that i miss being here at NM, there isn't an art studio or anything like that here on campus...at least at GCC I could go poke my head in the art studio and refresh myself by looking at other people's stuff. :)

Well, time to get back to my studies! hugs, e.

A Delicate Balance of Abnormality

So I'm still a bad blogger. Nothing new there. At least I can accept that....isn't that the first step in fixing a problem? Acknowledging that I actually have one?

Anyways, in an attempt to better my blogging abilities, here is my life. In all its abnormality.

I am loving my Nursing classes and I like all my classes in general and realize this is what i do want to do. God blessed me with a great hall-mate who is kind of my roommate but not really. (we live on a 5 room wing. all the rooms are doubles, but we both have "singles" --double rooms with only one occupant--and the other 3 rooms are empty. so we basically have our own space but we see each other all the time) anyways, it is really neat because we've been able to kind of church hunt together and have regular life conversations, etc. i started my clinical stuff last week. I'm doing mine at the maine veterans home in Presque Isle.....and that is basically all i can tell you because of patient confidentiality :) Grade-wise/stress-wise this year is going very well and is a welcome relief from Grove City in that regard.

However, I miss my Grover friends miserably and that part has been extremely difficult. I know this is where I'm supposed to be and the whole friend thing has been a major growing point. The social scene is extremely lacking up here and I haven't met many new people...very few.

I am enjoying being in "the County" though, it is so beautiful and the people are so nice. :) I have found a church that I like up here, too!

This weekend I went home and got to spend time with my family....we had some adventures :) I got to be the camerawoman for Hillary and Jacob's latest production (an English project) and was dying laughing the whole time....they are so numb!!! lol They left for Fryeburg Fair this afternoon....so sad I didn't get to go! :( Oh, haha, on Saturday morning I awoke to the sound of the washmachine (it is right next to my bedroom) and Dragonforce's Through the Fire and the Flames blasting on about 50 just outside my bedroom door....when I opened my door and came out Hillary was like, "wow, are you seriously just waking up?" I said, "ummmm, yeah?" Hillary: "whoa, how did you sleep through that? we've been up for like an hour or so!" Apparently I am a very heavy sleeper......either that or Dragonforce is a lullaby :).

So now I am back up north. Work in the morning. Good night! e.

PS I have come to the conclusion that I cannot imagine life without music. I am so thankful that God gave us that! My life could be a musical....every morning I wake up with a song in my head... even before I open my eyes. I don't think that is normal. Friday it was Audio Adrenaline's "Original Species", yesterday it was Brandi Carlile's "The Story" and today it was Fleetwood Mac's "Never Going Back Again"....hm, maybe that was an omen....that I was going back to school.....hrm.

Summer is almost over?!!?!?!

I don't know how it got to be the end of August and I haven't written since February... I kind of stink at this blog/updating thing. lol

Anyways I only have a minute so this is the bulleted edition of my update: :)

* I spent my Easter break in the beautiful state of Colorado with friends;it was a blast and I even got to go skiing in the Rockies :):):)

* The school year rounded out okay and I didn't die on my 22 page long (single spaced) Genetics final...though it was a close call!

* I am Working at Lincoln Paper and Tissue again this summer. I am head of the yard crew....there are two of us :) I don't really like the ring of "yard crew" so instead we've changed it to Horticultural Engineer...and I'm the Chief one. lol

* I am not returning to Grove City this fall. I spent a lot of time praying about what God would have me do for my life and what I was doing in Biology (which I do love). Through some obvious God stuff (cause I'm kind of thick) in Colorado and on the flight back I have decided to attend Northern Maine Community College in Presque Isle, Maine. God has been opening doors left and right and things are really falling into place. I am accepted into their Nursing program (2years) and will be living on campus in a single (which is a double that I have all to myself! :) )

Well, I have homework already for my nursing stuff so I need to get back on that :):) Dad and I went and jumped in the river this afternoon...the water is WICKED high and we both jump/dove off the dock. It felt wonderful as the weather was miserably muggy today. It was pretty though and I took this pic :):):)

Hugs, hopefully the next update will be sooner than 6 months from now! E.